Disarray

I'm a mess
I'm a sad
Do it all myself
You'll never find me tryna be someone else
No I don't care
I really don't care

If you didn't then
You might see it now
Just haunted by the ghost here in this heartbreak house
But I don't care
I really really don't care

I wouldn't want to clear it up
It's the light and it's the shade
When the days fall hard with sticks and stones
Let them ricochet

Oh it's not love if it ain't disarray
And I don't ever wanna change it
Just because I'm falling
Doesn't mean I wanna be saved
So I'll float in the chaos and won't come down
Coz it feels like I'm myself
In this disarray

I'm awake half asleep
Yeah I'm on the brink
Of an existential crisis it's normal for me
No I don't care
I really don't care

And I never think right before I speak
But I'm not gonna paint you a different picture of me
No I don't care
I know you wish that I cared

I wouldn't want to clear it up
It's the light and it's the shade
When the days fall hard with sticks and stones
Let them ricochet

Oh it's not love if it ain't disarray
And I don't ever wanna change it
Just because I'm falling
Doesn't mean I wanna be saved
Oh it's not love if it ain't disarray
And I don't ever wanna change it
Just because I'm falling
Doesn't mean I wanna be saved
So I'll float in the chaos and won't come down
Coz it feels like I'm myself
In this disarray