Kicking Myself

Try
Not to spin out too much
Oh but my mind
Keeps on tripping me up
Telling me lies
‘Till I’m coming undone
Emotionally drunk
Like I can’t get enough

Watch me fall
Down the rabbit hole
Spend hours counting all
The potential hypotheticals
Building walls
Just to knock them down
Leave me on the ground
In the fall out

I keep on leaving me a wreck
Words in my head, yeah they’re
Dead set on running parallel
Why do I do it, why do I do it
Always kicking myself, kicking myself

Yeah I’m kicking myself, kicking myself
Always kicking myself, kicking myself

Gotta stop talking in the mirror
God I don’t even wanna be her
Gotta start clearing up the picture
Instead of spending my evenings
Reaching
For the
Ceiling

And weekends
Grieving
Writing stories with sad endings
Picking
Myself apart all over again

I keep on leaving me a wreck
Words in my head, yeah they’re
Dead set on running parallel
Why do I do it, why do I do it
Always kicking myself, kicking myself

Yeah I’m kicking myself, kicking myself
Always kicking myself, kicking myself