Mess I Made

Guess that’s what I get
For leaning into the best friend
Now I’ve got one more ex and
Two less hands here for holding

Ignored all of my reasons
For running far from my feelings
Now I’m down on my knees and
Watching you as you’re leaving

I hear you say goodbye
And I say I’m fine
But if I’m
Honest with myself

I’m a mess
Total fake
Thinking I
Might need some help ‘cause

I never change
Always getting in my own way
Oh look at this mess I’ve made
Look at this mess I’ve made oh

I’ll take the blame
For making you hate my name
Oh look at this mess I’ve made
Look at this mess I’ve made oh

Thought I learned my lesson
That love does not equal tension
Turns out I’m still the same kid
Falling hard for affection

And it hurts so bad when it’s over
When we both wake up and we’re sober
But God that first little moment
Feeling you lean in closer

I hear you say goodbye
And I say I’m fine
But if I’m
Honest with myself

I’m a mess
Total fake
Thinking I
Might need some help, ‘cause

I never change
Always getting in my own way
Oh look at this mess I’ve made
Look at this mess I’ve made oh

I’ll take the blame
For making you hate my name
Oh look at this mess I’ve made
Look at this mess I’ve made oh