Spend Time - Alternative version

Pain all around is it worth it
I can't touch the ground is it hopeless
I'm still lost
Don't know where I am
I wish I already knew my fate
What if I'm already too late
Holding it in just to save face
It's turning me sideways

Colors are turning to grey
Suddenly I've lost my way
I can't find the right words to say
We're standing on my ship
And it's going down

Things are getting out of hand
I don't know if I'm OK
Shoot me down right where I stand
You don't want me anyway

Have I been here before?
Will you walk out that door
You always were unsure
Don't know you anymore

Colors are turning to grey
Suddenly I've lost my way
I can't find the right words to say
We're standing on my ship
And it's going down