Wanting You

I wait around to hear you tell me
It's all over just you go back to sleep
But I'm halfway through this bottle
I'm hearing voices but it's not you

I've never ever wanted you this way
There are thoughts rotting inside of my brain

Father, father where are you
I'm in pain tonight
Can I look into your eyes
I have dreams of things I have never seen
And I'm drunk tonight
Can I look into your eyes

I've never ever wanted you this way
I spent the whole week crying out your name

I've never ever wanted you this way
And from my bedside I can still see my shame
I never ever wanted to change
And I've never ever wanted you this way